Darned Tired

Amazing last few days of 2006 left me a tired body but a crazy mind widely awake, running at hi speed 100miles/hour…. It kept me thinkin in all of the after party late nights and missing the last hourly flight out to lala land. It’s 5am, when you really should be sleeping and looking forward to another day full of sunshine, but the past few weeks had been tough sleeping for many reasons… which of course started with heaps loada crap at work triggering my brains if I’m doing anything meaningful at all in my life apart from getting a cheque that pays for petrol food, and materials.. oh yeah and also my expensive dive trips, which happens only blardy 3-4 times a year, so the other 48 weeks of the year?? mean anything at all? most likely not if u ask me now (but most times I’m irrational anyways and blame it on the wee hours), coz 10 years down the road, I swear I will not be regretting it if I quit my job now.. so I started to wonder, what is that one thing, that I may regret, if I don’t do it now.. will it be traveling round the world? Doing voluntary work? Helping the misfortunes? Cleaning up the reef? Swimming with the dolphins? Having a career I actually enjoy doing? Going back to studies, (please, no PHD dad!) and this time sign up for a creative class no matter what my parents say. Picking up that dust-collecting beautiful guitar again? See Tibet and Nepal? So, one thought let to another, I boarded the plane to dream-catcher land instead… day (in my case night) dreaming… (minus the snoring & drooling, and the legs kang kang).. subsequently when I run outa ideas.. devil’s advocate starts playing its role and begun to interrogate the practicality and the source of guts, which more often than not is resisted by the strict Chinese standards of being expected to grow up, be an accountant, get married, and have kids all before the age of 30. Boy do I not hate people asking me when am I getting married.. folks mind your own life would you? Is marriage the only way out to happiness and contentment? Well, I have perfectly good company which I thoroughly enjoyed in the last few weeks, catchin up with old friends plus some new friends. Need not be a married accountant mummy to have fun.

Please… my mind.. let me get some sleep. Anyone, be so kind to hypnotise me..chinyi chinyiiiiiiii.. go 2 sleeeeeeeeeeep… stop dreameeeeeeeeeeng. Go 2 sleeeeeeeep.